I began this blog as a way to document the adventures of all four of the wild boys.  I wanted to share the joy, the fears, the experience, the highs, the lows, the inbetweens… and hopefully help others.  My long term plan was to convert the blog to a book once Marsh sailed to kindergarten.

Sadly, some people resent that and take it a step further to turn it all against not only me, but my family.  There have been many times I have considered stepping away from the blog for a while.  And even deleting it entirely – especially in times like these.

But I can’t.

Though things could always be worse, this past week our family experienced a crisis of epic proportions.  It has been said things sometimes have to fall completely apart so that something better can be built.   Maybe that is the case here. And maybe it is not.  All I know is as a parent who would rather be hurt than see her children hurting, this is excruciating.  As the woman who dreamed of being a writer all of her life (and mom for most of it), I just don’t have the words to explain.  

Anyone who knows me well knows I try with everything I am. I try to be thankful for all experiences (even the bad) – sometimes with success, sometimes with failure.  I am human, afterall, and imperfect.  I have certainly made my share of mistakes.  Through the best and worst of it, the support and help others have offered impacted us all very positively.  I don’t know where this family would be without you.  

And, despite my seemingly chronic unpreparedness at rising to the parenting challenges of late, I am so thankful for these boys. And strive to give them the best so they can be their best. 

I live for the day they understand how much they mean to me.  Until then, please send good thoughts and prayers<3